Well hello again old friend.

8 years....... It's been a whopping 8 years since I've looked at this site. In truth I'm not sure what brings me back to it now; yet here I am. Reading the words on the page are like looking at some random website or obscure book. I read them. I hear them. They speak to me, still. And it's confusing and humorous in some ways because I know that they came from myself, and yet they feel as if they came from another source completely. In reading them and letting them soak in now, it seems that I was more of my own teacher than I ever realized. Ain't it funny how that works out?

Some things have remained the same. Others have changed beyond belief. And yet some things have come full circle and continue to dance along the spiral of being. I still struggle with the part of myself that wants to control everything it can; this part of me is the worst of my ego. I find that there is much understanding that flows from my mind and yet there is still a disconnect somewhere that interrupts this flow before it can fully be experienced by the soul. It's as if I have a frayed wire in the extension cord that allows just enough juice to get through to power the device, but the link is always disjointed and breaking up so that there's never a strong enough signal. Perhaps this is just my mind's way of trying to control by fear..... I'm not entirely sure and this is why I'm still working on it.

Time is a funny thing. I always thought when I was younger that the old folks were being funny (or senile) when they told me that the older you get the faster time flies. Surely it seemed like it would be the other way around. I was so ignorant HAH! Time does indeed move faster. I read or saw something at some point years ago that explained why older people felt the passing of time more than the young. It was a theory that dealt with how older people had more stress and that the biological internal clock slowed down with age, making a more pronounced difference with the speed of external time. I don't know what it is.... I simply know that it is.

With that said, I'm not sure how often I'll get back here. I'd like to say that I will come often. I'm going to use this more as a personal journal and not worry about who sees it or how it's perceived. As always, I welcome those who want to share differing or shared perceptions and thoughts. This is, by far, the best way I learn. :)